| Its fall, it's startin to get chilly out there, you see couples holdin hands, huggin each other so they can keep each other warm. jealous? its so easy to catch onto a fish, feelings or no feelings involved at the begining, but feelings will grow ... eventually. but you have no idea how hard it is to let go of that person, even tho he's already "free." at first you think they're cute, you chill with that person, you talk on the phone with the person, you get to know him, and slowly you're falling .. but he doesnt know that, and maybe he does. it matters what kinda person you're dealing with here. some guys can be all talk, they sneak into your heart by climbing a window with pick up lines, sweet talk here & there, & you dont even know if he's serious or not. once you've fallen so deep .. you're feelings grow, the fact that he doesnt say hi to you, or look at you, it can hurt so bad. while there's some other guys out there, the good guys ... they get hurt, when they dont deserve that. isnt LOVE about taking chances? sall about not givin two fucks. just you & that person, no one else. & no one has a right to take that from one of you.
" .. you've been wrong before dont be wrong anymore ... "
LOVE doesnt have limits, BUT SELF-RESPECT does. you can love/feel for a person for a long time, thats normal. but when you start to breakdown for small reasons or reasons like how it hurts to know that the other person lost their feelings for you and still feel for that person, still crying and stressing over that person, you're slowly losing your self respect. it hurts especially when you're loving the person so much .. and they give you nothing back ... you do love the person, but by not trying to let it not get to you is only hurting yourself, and you start to forget about your love for yourself. sometimes in this situations, you gotta be concited to see yourself smile, even if its not forever, but as long as you got a real true smile, it makes it okay.
if you have self-respect, you wait patiently, but not too long, cause someone who makes you wait for their lovin aint worth your worries.
" .. cause i don't have much to offer, but my heart&soul & i guess that's not enough for you to notice me .. "
some people have trust issues, its normal, but if you say you love that person a lot, you gotta let all the rumors fall back & turn to your partner & ask him yourself if its true. if he loves you he will tell the truth. its up to you .. if you dont believe it, you dont really love the person. think about it if you were in their shoes. now thats not givin two fucks.
thoughts these past few days:
first (puppy) love never dies .. it will always be there, no matter how hard you try, it will always be there. why? cause it's your first TRUE experience with love, & a memory like that shouldn't be forgotten.
it's been a while since something true came my way ... |
